For the first time I actually feel like I want to cry about the whole job situation and the trial we are going through. I have said all along that God has it handled. Does that mean then that I am wavering in my faith that the Lord has it handled? No it just means that I am transitioning from merely believing to completely surrendering.
There comes a point where you can either throw up your hands and say I quit or lift your arms to heaven and say I surrender. Not the false sense of surrender where in your heart there is a twinge of well I surrender as long as God gives me what I want but real surrender where you surrender even when he gives you what you don't want. I can not say I am fully where he wants me to be but oh Praise the Lord I am also not any where near where I used to be. I pray that no matter what trial is out there for us we will be so surrendered that the face of Christ is seen not ours.
Love and Prayers,
Kim
