First and foremost please do not misunderstand my title, I mean no disrespect and am not attempting to be flippant in any way about what is a very serious issue with eating disorders. I speak only of my personal experience and not anyone else.
I had a bit of a wake up call you could say. I have been way too busy with the wrong focus and the wrong direction. I fell back into my old binge type habits with eating and had been focusing on the weight loss aspect when I should have been focusing on purging the sin.
I seem to have had these issues for a very long time. I never seemed to get better just kept transferring my addictions, from alcohol to drugs to cigarettes to food. I keep looking horizontal as if some knight in shining armour is about to arrive on the scene instead of looking vertical so to speak and realizing the dragon has already lost.
I can not stress enough how critical it is that you SHARE, SHARE, SHARE your feelings and heart do not stuff it you do not have enough room. I know this because I have so many times reverted back to eating the way I feel or literally eating my thoughts, feelings and cares good and bad. My sin that I need to purge is the bitterness that keeps attempting to take root in my heart when I do not address things with God first, to examine my heart and then if needed another person in my life.
God is there to bear your burdens and yes you are to come as you are not as you think you should be. You do not go to the shower already clean, dressed and ready do you? No you come filthy, tired and not presentable to anyone. That is how the Lord wants you just as you are. Admit you messed up and sinned against God first and foremost and then accept his forgiveness and be cleansed.
More later
Love and Prayers,
Kim
